i love you.

I was wondering how many ppl already comment on me...yea they dont even see me before..

hehe maybe i so famous about my bad..i dont know how many bads they applied on me...

maybe one day i will because of those bad comments and those bad word about my attitude

will just make me lost my life and my everything...i dont know how many times i still need to face it in my life...im not sad because of this thing happen on me...i will die for you..so its just a little matter for me...but i feel sad cause i lose...i just have to admit that i lose.... i'm wondering if one day i'm in front of you and "someone" hit me and will you just watching beside with a distance and not come to hugs me? or even scold that someone? well if you dont..i just have to say...i'm loser...i actually dont really care and mind about how people look at me...the most important is how you look at me...and you dont know how much i hope you will because of me and scold those people...well you just didnt...i was waiting the text showing me those words...at last i get killed by me hope...maybe you dont know..dont know is better than lie...at least you never didnt think about that and come to lie me...every times i also will be like fine i dont care anymore but i cant...but luckily you didnt hide it and dont tell me...or else it will be more more more and more sad.... just because i love you so much...i cant dont care about you for even a sec...i do really really love you..and thats the reason i so scared about this....:'(......i'll never ask you to dont care or ignore about anyone anymore...it will just a word pass through ur left ear and go out from right ear... is okay...it's just you too kind and cant ignore anyone...even a stranger maybe...but i will try my best to protect you forever...at least till i die...all of this just because of i really really really really really really really really really love you so much...i really want to speak out loud tell the whole world i love you more baby and i love you forever at this moment but will it be someone or more than one around there said that dont trust him or idk everything about my bad maybe? then they will say is okay..if anything just find me........will be it better than my only little three words? i dont have to prove them...i everyday keep proving how much i love you...and it will be forever...at this moment..i feel so lonely and i miss my home my mum especially my dad.........:'(....i always cry...and i tot that because of im weak but last few days i saw a post that said not because that you're weak just because that you have strong for too long....all i need is just your care...sometime just 让一让我 i will be already very happy..............................................................................................................................................................

waiting you to love me

and give me happy

i love you girlfriend.

The 605 days

Awwwww...its 4.36am and i still awake..

i was thinking about those stuff again?

How good is that if you were here ? =(

*How good is that if you were here this is the thing i always tell myself when i face everything no matter its happy or sad....i hope that i still can share with you....

its still feel so sad when someone or my frens mention about what their dad did for them?

like when they need money they can get help from dad...

but its the only one thing a lot ppl cant do it, and its what i want to do the most...

that is did you guys ever try to "Men's talk" with ur dad? i guess no??

I want to!!!

because there is some problem i face and i need your advice so much......

*So sorry that i still want to bother you....

hmm....i guess i dream i trying to tell you about my problem last nite but i just finish told then i wake up already?? so?? you wanna me to figure it out myself?? okay i will try to do that =)

AND i miss you so much dad....you are always my idol inside my heart....:'(

Understand?

How to understand a people?

Is that so hard and important? nobody can give you the answer...

once you cant communicate with that person, then you are not understand about him

why understand?

did you ever stand on his/her side and think?

do you actually know what he/she want?

or you just feel that you understand him/her well from the smiling face he/she always shows?

why don't we spend some time to understand the people that you really care?

sometimes we just have to sit down and think properly or try to imagine is i were him or her

maybe you cant find out what he/she actually like or want....

do it before you regret =) ?

Hairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Erm....once u change ur hairstyle...there are a lot comments come to u...u have to accept how they describe u....kid??guai lan kia?? be mature ki ?? en tao ki ?? pai kua ki?? long hair ka ngam u ?? short hair bo ngam u ? Different people gt different comment.....haihs....sometime even u also dunno choose to believe who..listen to who...accept whos comment?? but hair is urs....dun wan cut also cut dy...have a try to change a new style also good ^^....so keep all my ugly image inside ur FCKING brain ^^.....hair will become long one day......my image will change one day...u will love me one day =)

Woooolala.....New lifeStyle

This while i notice that there are still a lot thing i nid to improve , especially my lifestyle so there is my new target^^

• Sleep before 12am....(for health and also for my face^^)
• Drink at least 8 glasses of water...
• Eat more than how much i ate everytime...(so that i wont be "tebu")
• Be a good student that ppl will ask abt homework or copy my answer^^
• Be a pro dota player....(dont want let ppl bully >.<")
• Dont do last minute work...
  
• Dont always give trouble to people
• Earn money to buy the thing for Skin Care
• Earn money to buy cloth^^
• I wan be fashion

• Learn everything that i dunno

第143天~

新年快乐~情人节快乐....好久没回来这里了...这里是我一个人的世界~最近发不少事, 新年其间去了泰国见识了不少东西..其实不是很喜欢去可是妈妈要去我一定陪去的...虽然说是很不顺利因为人多车也多所以什么都要等来等去...可是还算开心...在哪里我会觉得是最闷寂寞的..因为每次出门人家是参朋友而我是参爸爸..晚上我和爸爸一定会去喝一杯的..可是这次我没去到因为我没有伴了...我好想再像以前那样一起搥酒..唉.....PATAYA的酒吧很复杂可是以前我跟爸爸去那种地方总是不会怕的..可是那天我们走在路上突然有几个泰女过来抱我..那时我才发现没人能帮我了...我再也没有像以前的那种安全感了哦...所以我一定要学会独立...要站的稳...在这次TRIP最开心的就是看见妈妈开心了...所以只要她开心什么都值得的......现在就是分手信了...~.~希望认识我的人都不孤单...新年要快乐....

第41天~

上个星期天我回到GYM了..哈哈..我找回了自己..我下定决心要好好的练了..不要辜负帮我的朋友!说到找到自我..下面的一段只给某人看..

发生了那么多事,每次有了女朋友不过多久都分手了..我一直在想是什么问题..想了想了很多天..终于让我找到了答案..那答案就是我根本放不下一个人..每次都逼自己去放下可是就每次又联络还是见面时都让我很想再得到她..为什么呢..因为我真正ai的就是她..我懂在一起很辛苦..可是没办法..就都控制不住..你考试了..要加油哦..哈哈..最后我只想知道你还爱不爱我..因为我还爱你..